Makeup has been a significant part of my life since I was a girl. I remember begging my mom for nail polish, lipstick, and eye shadow for Christmas. My father became upset when she bought it for me saying I was too young and didn’t need it. At that time I don’t think I was conscious of the reasons women wore makeup, it was just something that was normal. Makeup accompanied me into my awkward teenaged years.
My insecurities had me feeling like I needed makeup to look good and to fit in. This feeling that makeup and thereby, others’ approval, was necessary followed me through my 20’s. At one point, I wouldn’t go to work or get coffee without makeup. As I’ve grown and worked on self-acceptance my relationship with makeup has changed. I feel more relaxed about wearing makeup. I no longer wear it daily and I don’t need it to feel attractive or confident. I admit some days it helps. I view makeup as an enjoyment more than before. I like using different colors and materials to change my look. I think makeup will always be a part of my life but the reasons it will be there are constantly evolving.